Up untill yesterday i had thought i was ok about his death. But what happened yesterday just made it even more real then ever. I know that it may sound stupid but i could feel kipper around, all of his old sleeping spots still bring back the memorys i hold so dear. One of my kittens, Riley, reminds me so much of Kipper. He is playfull and sweet just like him, the only thing is the Riley is still a kitten and hasnt learned the gift of tollerance as kipper did at a very early age. Riley seems to be actracted to the places were our cat Kipper used to lay, he sniffs the spots as if there is really a cat there. But of course no one can see one. But i think that Kipper was there and was watching my family closley to keep us safe untill he felt it was ok to leave us. Up untill yesterday i felt his presence. I had a dream that night that really effected me, i dreamed he was here again and i was showing him off as usual to all of my family. I was holding him and petting him and just loving him in general.I woke up and knew that was a sign, i didnt know what it ment but i would soon find out. I went online and did some research to see if anyone else experienced this because i already knew it sounded crazy but by hearing other peoples experiences it helped me to just be happy he visited me in my dream. So all yesterday i was gone but when i got home something was different. I just didnt feel him around anymore. I tried to go to sleep about a half an our ago but couldnt. All i was thinking about was kipper and why he had come to my dream that night. But then every time i thought of him riley pooped into my head, everytime i would think of his name riley popped up again. It felt as if something was making me say Riley, as if they wanted me to move on. So i am writing this now because i know what that dream ment. It ment that Kipper felt it was time to move on all the way and finish his journey to heaven.
I now remember the night before he passed. I had a feeling in my gut he wasnt going to make it much longer. When i would pick him up his legs would go limp and i would set him back down on my bed and he just slept. I sat down next to him and said my goodbyes. I just knew that it was his time. And the next day my mom told me when i came home from school that she had put him down. Then i knew that i was right and i was so lucky that i got to say goodbye because my dad and sister didnt. It just goes to show how strong a bond between a pet and a owner can be, wait he wasnt even a pet he was a part of the family. We will always remember him, he will never ever be forgotten.
Kipper Kirby
March 12, 1997 to April 29,2008
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